F#*K!

Seriously?

This was not my best day ever.

Four days from my planned FET and shit happens. Bad shit. Like cancelled cycle bad.

I got a call from the RE office yesterday after my progesterone level came back. Still too low, so they didn't think I had ovulated yet. I went back today for a followup level and got a call from the RE a tad bit too early to be a routine call. "It's not good news" he said right away. My progesterone level was even a little bit lower than yesterday. WTF. The cycle theoretically could be salvaged if they pumped me up with a ton of progesterone, but the odds of it succeeding are very low and not worthy of my best embryo. 

So.....

We start over. This time with a controlled cycle. Boo. Hiss.

I am So. Disappointed.

I know that this is the right thing to do. I know that. But BOO!!!

Dr. Tran said that the silver lining is that they now have a clue to why we have not succeeded in the past. My progesterone levels have always been normal at CD 21, but I've never tested this early, so the theory is that my progesterone level doesn't rise fast enough to get a pregnancy going. Maybe. He explained that "normal" progesterone at CD 21 is kind of a mystery. Some people say that the level should be above 5. Some say above 10. No one's really that sure. He does know that mine was supposed to be 2.5 or greater after ovulation and it's only 1.3. 

So we put off procreation for another long while. What's another couple months, right? :(

It already feels like eternity.

I haven't gotten my revised plan yet, but it sounds like I'll start birth control pills again when I get my period and start lupron after that, this time with progesterone patches. 

But for now we wait. While everyone and their Mother gets knocked up the old fashioned way.