Trigger Happy

I have been testing with OPKs for several days now and still no positive. Yesterday I started feeling like ovulation was near (only an infertile can predict ovulation without OPKs!) but still no positive this morning, so in to the clinic I went. Sure enough, big whopping follicle on the right side ready and waiting to come on out. Because I'm on CD15, my RE decided to give me a trigger shot of HCG tonight so I would ovulate. I think just to be sure that my body didn't do something wonky and decide to hold off for a while or not ovulate at all :)

The control freak in me feels a little bit better now that this cycle is not all depending on my own body! Ha ha!

I will trigger tonight around 10pm, go back tomorrow morning for a progesterone level check, and then we're free to live our lives as scheduled until the transfer on Saturday! I am so excited to get one of those maybe-babies in here!!!

The Best Laid Plans

I saw Dr. Tran's phone number on my caller ID this afternoon and knew that we were not going to go with the tentative plan I had discussed with the Nurse at my monitoring appointment this morning. 

My estradiol level is 4830 and I have more than 30 follicles, both of which put me in the high risk for OHSS category. I knew this, but I didn't know what that meant for us.

Thank goodness, the trigger and retrieval are still in the plan. I think I would have lost my zen completely if it had been cancelled, and no amount of Circle and Bloom could have brought it back! 

The new plan:

Trigger tonight at 9:30pm with a reduced dose of HCG.

Retrieval on Wednesday at 9:30am.

Evaluate at 3 days based on embryo quality if we are going to grow to 5 day blastocysts or transfer 2 day 3 embryos at that point. 

If good quality at day 3, wait until day 5 and freeze all embryos.

Wait (more waiting?!?), get my period, go through one full cycle, then FET the cycle after that.

I know that this is the right thing to do. I know that it is the most safe thing and the option that gives us the best chance of conceiving, but damn it! I am so disappointed! I thought that in 7 days I would have an embryo or two in my chronically empty uterus! I thought that in two weeks I might get my first positive pregnancy test. And now we will wait again.

This is also throwing a big kink in my IVF vacation! Woe is me :) 

Now I'm not sure if I should indulge myself with the full two weeks if next week I will not be doing anything at all. Although, the RE did say that even without transferring, I will probably end up with some form of OHSS. So maybe I'll take the week and let my bloated self recoup. Ugh. 

If nothing else, infertility has taught me that despite how hard I try to be in control, I can not plan everything. I thought I had earned this already, but the schedule seemed so lovely and laid out to perfection...I thought I could safely count on it. 

I'm trying to not wallow in my disappointment and to consider myself lucky that we have gotten this far and that the cycle was not cancelled. We still have lots to look forward to, but right now I'm so bummed. :(

Pulling The Trigger

I had my third ultrasound of the week today...is that normal when on Menopur? I didn't know I would be making so many trips!

Good news all around: text book lining, good estradiol level, and three follicles ready and waiting to be triggered. So tonight Hubby will give me my HCG trigger shot and our IUI is scheduled for Sunday morning! Eek!

And maybe the best news is that I get to sleep in tomorrow. I have been feeling pretty run down with all of the running around from appointments to work almost every day.