The bloating has arrived. It is making me look like I'm 5 months pregnant. It is not cute.
I am feeling utterly BLAH. It is making me reevaluate the cute pregnant belly. Am I going to think it's cute when it's on my body?
I have always had a small chest, big butt, small waste thing going on. It is strong genetics. Despite my best efforts to change the first two, my best shots proved futile.
The small chest was the bane of my teenage existence. I fought it hard, hoping and praying that they would grow and I would be the one woman in my family with a sizable rack. No go. With maturity came an appreciation (most of the time, at least) for my small boobs. No cumbersome extra weight hanging around making exercise difficult, no worries of wardrobe malfunctions when wearing small shirts, and freedom to wear (or not wear) any kind of bra or bathing suit top I want.
The booty also started as a negative, but over the years I have come to embrace it as an ass-et :) It used to be one of my least favorite body parts, so I was shocked when my Husband and I were dating to learn that it was his favorite part of me. Aside from my amazing personality, of course ;)
The small waist, though. That has always been my saving grace in the body image department, the part of me that I was always confident about. So now seeing it balloon up to never-before-seen proportions...not gonna lie, it's freaking me out. I know that this is temporary. I know that I would be the luckiest girl in the world if my tummy could pop out because of a pregnancy. It's just making me think a little harder about how a morphing body (even due to a growing baby inside) could mess with me.
I have heard people complain about their pregnancy weight and thought, "But you look so adorable!" and "If I was pregnant, I would cherish every pound!" and even "Get over yourself! You're growing a human! Suck up your self-esteem issues and move on!"
This giant OHSS belly is helping me understand that even when it is everything you want, seeing your body change isn't always easy. Here's hoping that I find my pregnant belly cuter than I find this one!
